Fears… what a yucky post. As I sit here and try to write this, in the back of my mind I hear my mother telling me not to write this, as the kids can just use it ammunition. Nevertheless, I write away… hoping this doesn’t come back to bite me one day.
Wasps, Bees and all other nasty stinging insects
I am allergic so I am justifiably terrified. But the reason I am afraid is because of the movie “My Girl”. For anyone who hasn’t seen it, it’s a great movie, EXCEPT (spoiler alert lol) Thomas J dies from an allergic reaction to bee stings.
In my mind, it is a legitimate fear. Honestly, I have no idea where it stems from. My parents didn’t split up until I was 18, so I had both parents growing up. I just fear that if I am not good enough UI will end up alone. Which leads to my obsession to do well.
I have always been afraid to fail, so I know that there are things I will not try because I refuse to fail. This fear just feeds into my fear of abandonment which feeds back into my fear of failure, so these two are literally intertwined.
Now that my deep dark secrets are out there, lets hope the kids never use them.